in the spotlight

Do we honestly think that we can change things? Why is it, just when we think we are bobbing along quite nicely, thinking we have just about go it right, that some a*sehole chucks a great big fat spanner in the works.
My karma is good, it's everyone else's that stinks!
It seems that after trying to deal with the problem, and getting rejected by the problem, who doesn't want to be sorted out, trying to ignore it, is just as bad. It just rears it's really really ugly head again. AAAGH.
Anyone would think that just trying to have a happy normal calm existence would be a fine thing to do, so why do they want to change that.
I am mad.
Really mad.
Just go away and leave me alone. You know who you are. I am happy. REALLY happy. Just because you are not. GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE. I have tried. really i have. Ugh

A masque, what does it hide do you think? It's sort of a mischievious wink that you get from a child that has been caught with it's hand in the biccie jar. The snow that hides the crocus, a bit of personality hiding behind the humdrum of everyday life. Perhaps this one could describe the inner me, the one that is confident behind the intrigue, choosing to be the masque itself, a confident me, who has a secret maybe. Not a bad secret of course, but a love secret, a knowing that I have a man who knows me well, and that I bask in the knowledge that he loves me unconditionally, with all my faults (my N), a faith secret, a different pathway, which I wish to follow, a shunned upon belief that is so natural, a real one, that makes sense, in this world we live in.

Time... you would think that there would be enough of it, wouldn't you? However, in the days of being off work, Time seems to fly by, and someone tell me, why, when you are at work, Time just drags on by? Aaagh. I will never understand that one.

Happy cleaning

Intrigue...

That's me. A blog about me but not, if you get my drift. My life, my passions, without spilling all the beans, all at once.
And so it starts...